It’s been a year since “Less than Zero”

Warning: 99.9% of the following entry is focused on Robert Downey Jr., the roles he’s known for, and what I’d learned about/from him over the past year.
This following entry also contains superfluous uses of Downey quotes, -isms, fangirl-ism and insanity.

In the event that you’d read a lot of my blog the previous year and already am sick of me repeating myself about this, that or whatever about this particular subject, I strongly suggest you turn back now while you still can.

And to Robert and Susan Downey, should either/both of you come across this entry on a later date, please forgive me if I go a little over the top on anything.
This is strictly for entertainment purposes only… although in my case, some of it is very therapeutic amidst these particular stressful times.
All the same, I sincerely hope that if you ever come across any of this that it’ll be flattering and enjoyable to read rather than the exact opposite.

You’ve all been warned

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For the record, the “activating incident” was technically February 5th starting around midnight, but I’m taking the one-year mark as being the first Thursday-going-into-Friday of February… Friday at midnight if you will…

the date’s not NEARLY as important as the content, though 😎

hmm… it’s kinda strange, the position I’m in now… I’ve gone without for a little more than a week… and what I seem to be doing is, I guess πŸ˜• keeping my distance for a bit. there’s really no point in indulging or overindulging for that matter… maybe when I start to forget some things and other things come less predictable… or heck, like any other regular movie, I get in the mood to watch something, I’ll watch it :shrug: no need to run my DVD collection to the ground…
the next thing I do will most likely be seeing “True Believer” Wednesday at 11am… after which I could probably spend a night on YouTube to make up for the fact that we’re only talking about a minor role here
and maybe, just maybe, if I manage to cut down on the crazyness for a couple of months, I can resume how things were in 2010 when a movie would come out every couple months and I’d go to the theaters to see it… I can jump back into things in full swing as early as… I’m still sticking with April, but if not :shrug: the release of The Avengers

but tonight’s more about summing up the past year rather than looking a head… I can look ahead plenty AFTERWARDS

There have been a couple of times recently… I average one thing a year… something that really gets to me, something that touches me or otherwise changes my outlook on something completely… I can spend anywhere between 3 months to a couple years on that…

something that either had me scared for someone’s life or the loss/death of someone that leaves me unable to let something go.
along with loving routine things, wanting to adhere to routine and therefore not having to bother anyone else with details… I like to be alone to do things on my own, my way more than spending time with people

and almost always, I turn to my writing when I don’t want to bore someone else with the details… Prince made this blog possible because I couldn’t keep saying to my parents how much I was crazy about his music, how amazing he’d written all of these songs… repeating myself constantly…

and I guess for the time being, while I try to figure out just how my life has been/will be fulfilled by spending time studying Robert Downey Jr. and his movies, the only thing I can answer it with is:
1) he gave me something to write about so this blog would gather dust and be completely forget, just floating around in cyberspace, not being added to…

Anyway, back to the “activating incident”:

I remember how I used to feel about things and it was like the best supply of endorphins I could ask for… but since everything’s gotten too predictable in my overexposing myself to anything and everything I could get my fingertips on…
well, there was a combination of things that went wrong towards the end of the year… but by no means, the end of the road πŸ˜‰
just need to err on the side of caution and moderation… haha, moderation, that’s a good one

“anything you attempt to control, you probably have a problem with…”

just might :shrug: I managed a week, so possibly if I decide to go the whole 9 yards with it being what I give up for Lent… never participated in that before

 

one thing I definitely put my finger on in the past couple hours… I brought myself back to the place where all of this came falling down.
yes, at least I’ll explain myself

Prior to that date, Robert Downey Jr. came to my attention with “Tropic Thunder.” Thought he deserved the Oscar and had become extremely irate towards “The Dark Knight” ever since… I’m kinda led to believe that Heath Ledger might have deserved the Oscar more because, let’s face it, he’s the only part of the movie that was watchable… he was creepy, yes, but everything else was just… boring… overwrought, overdramatic…

[deleted a bunch of ranting against The Dark Knight and how its nothing about how I imagine the Batman brand]

so all that aside… I intercepted somewhere… can’t remember where… a list of movies that were going to be the biggest films of 2009… Sherlock Holmes was listed towards the bottom and I found out that it was with Robert as Sherlock… so I made an asterisk next to it and made sure to keep an eye out for it…

I’d never seen a single Sherlock film before, but I knew the stereotypical Sherlock Holmes… the closest thing I ever got to that was The Great Mouse Detective… and I don’t remember that all that well either, was several years ago…
I was waiting for all the usual stuff and clearly I got something completely different… how can I describe it… it was like experiencing… not quite Coldplay’s Viva La Vida album… but something kinda like that… it wasn’t weird so much as I didn’t really know what to think of it at first…

he and Watson were more partners than I knew they ever were… there was a lot of boxing and fighting in the action scenes… heck, one of the few times in my life where I have said that I nearly fell asleep in the theater to a movie… I am not kidding…
the only thing that managed to save the movie for me (I think I lost track of everything after he jumped out of the window… after weeks of seeing that trailer, I was wondering where that came into the movie… go figure it’d be closer to the end…. and I kinda emerged when he met Lord Blackwood on the bridge)… was him explaining every little detail about how he decided him to be behind the recent crimes… how all of the pieces fit together…

now THAT was something… Robert had said that the movie started to crumble a bit in the 3rd act and he didn’t think it was as well done as the rest of the film… I will agree to a degree…
how everything was summed up, all the clues explained… that was an exciting scene 😎

and I guess for a while, I kinda forgot about it… amidst the dozens of movies I went out to see that year… plus I still had a steady income at that time, so that took my mind off things…
I didn’t get the blu-ray for a while because I was waiting for a good price… πŸ˜•
I shoulda just broke down and got it at my first chance, but waiting was good… I saw it a couple more times and liked it more each time… once everything made sense and I really did find a lot of humor in the scenes, loved the banter between Watson & Sherlock

“Iron-Man 2” came out in theaters… my mom was a reluctant tag-along and ended up having her opinon changed after 2 hours… haha… she thought she was humoring me because she just gets that way when I’m this way for certain actors… but definitely, the movie was great… a great ride… every part of it… and I especially loved the character development of Tony Stark… something I like to see with my favorite male leads, getting into their minds and such… likewise, that was what a lot of people hated about the movie

then there was “Due Date”… which I went to see strictly because of Robert’s involvement… if I didn’t know who he was or had seen “The Hangover” I don’t think I’d have given that a shot…
and as it turns out, that became one of my current favorite movies for a while… he’s the reason I keep coming back to watch it again and again… (hmm… I wonder if I’m still up for watching it at the end of the movie to celebrate Susan’s own ‘due date’… I won’t know for a couple weeks)

honestly, I don’t think I thought too much of the movie when I saw it… the anti-chemistry was great.. was definitely intrigued by the “dry docking” scene… how they got Sunny to do that extra “trick”… I’d never seen any animal do that so I was just flabbergasted…
bits and pieces I took away from it, definitely
the wafflehouse quote and the drinkage ditch scene

 

but whenever Robert would pop up anywhere, I was there at full attention… I watched “Ally McBeal” once or twice when I saw that he was listed in the info… didn’t remember too much except the vague memory of hearing him sing the first time… no words other than… he’s just so good, wow…

the last thing I got my fingertips on was the remote which took me to the Golden Globes… and he read out the nominations for best actress in a comedy/musical… flirting with all the nominees with this sense of humor that, I dunno, it just turned me on… I’m not used to such a dry sense of humor… I think I heard my mom say once that she thought he was… not weird (just thought about Susan’s first impression of him for a moment, lol)… she thought Prince was weird & an acquired taste…
she thought that Robert was maybe a little… I guess full of himself with his sense of humor… I guess, it was something like that…

I have a vague recollection of him saying one thing that kinda turned me off a bit… not enough to throw me off completely… but other than that, I don’t think I ever took offence to anything he said or did… I know he doesn’t take himself super seriously and I certainly can’t take his seemingly offensive prattling as being serious either…

“Less than Zero”… oddly enough… was a quest that I’d been waiting to uphold for… probably my whole life…
since I was maybe 9, 10, 11… the afternoon where I watched the music video for “Hazy Shade of Winter” twice in a row because it was so eerie that it was intoxicating… then with all the scenes from this movie in the video, I was extremely curious to see what the movie was about… the song was excellent, so it had to be another cool 80’s movie…

and as it so happened, one day I remembered to look for it, it was listed to air on Fox Movie Channel, Friday at midnight…
and by COMPLETE coincidence, Robert Downey Jr. was in the movie…

I honestly couldn’t believe it… I was going to get a chance to see a younger role…
although I don’t think I ever made it my life’s mission to see every movie he’d been in since I heard his name… that’s still not true and I’m trying to weedle myself down to just the two I haven’t seen yet (although “Game 6” and “Good night & good luck” are still on my radar, just in case they show themselves… otherwise I will have seen nearly all of his movies from the past decade)

I think I wanted to keep it strictly to his recent roles because I didn’t think I’d find him as attractive when he was closer to my age… and I have this vague recollection of seeing stuff like jail time, rehab, and drugs listed under the trivia of his IMDB profile, but I didn’t want to read up on the details… still better left in the past, yet I spent a good deal of this year bringing it up… only telling myself at a later date to STFU… and leave it alone

and maybe before that night, I might have seen half an hour of “The Pick-up Artist” and turned the channel… it was almost painful to watch, the movie was so bad…

in comparison, actually… and I can’t believe I’m saying this… as… I’m gonna say it… shitty… the filmmaking of “The Pick-up Artist” looked…

“Less than Zero” was something else… and I’m not talking about the ending here, that’s something else entirely…

I might have overdramatized a lot of the movie… but if I remember right and I believe I do… there was a period in the movie where I was slumped over, hugging my legs… perhaps 10 minutes away from falling asleep… I was so bored… watching the movie back (to a point) online a couple months later, I intercepted that feeling again…
when the focus was primarily on Clay & Blair kinda getting back together as a couple (in every way possible)… I was bored out of my mind… it held no interest for me at all… although the sex scene kinda had me thinking… whoa, okay… the first sex scene I sat through and actually watched…
“Purple Rain” had a sex scene, but it showed them going to 3rd base, not going all the way… and I have a very vague recollection (and for good reason, the same reason why I’m going to have a vague collection of a short scene in “Hall Pass” which I saw yesterday) of one in “Sideways”… the movie was good up until that point where I voided the idea of ever watching it again… don’t know why they were in that house, but they walked in on a couple people and the dude didn’t put anything on, he just ran after them and took to their getaway car with a tire-iron or something…

there was plenty of coverage, though, so “Less than Zero” had a typical movie sex scene… meaning they usually take care to adhere to coverage or else it’d be pornography…
“The Kids are all right”… that bordered on it a couple of times… still kinda shaking those images out of my head too…

they played THE song… during the opening credits… so it seemed very foreboding and all that with everything else going on before and after that scene… when they showed a couple of scenes between the three friends before we arrive at the present, but after graduation…
after seeing the video a bunch of times, I have to say that it was a cop-out to use that song for the opening credits… it could have had so much more impact, but instead it was like a disappointment to use it that way…
backing up no action at all except for Clay driving his corvette down the road

hmm… has me wondering how long I’ll be able to stay up to write this entry and whether or not I can get through the entire thing tonight… there’s so much to discuss… still no Internet… I just gotta remember if/when I finish not to click Submit unless I have my signal back

my mom said a couple of times when I expressed interest in this movie that it was weird and clearly trying to talk me out of wanting to see it…

I kinda knew drugs were involved, just not how much… I think the weird part came from the circumstances Julian has to pay off his debt…
male prostitution is definitely outside the norm

[more deleted extracurriculars]

I alluded to something earlier that I didn’t completely explain… something I remembered about how I felt watching the movie earlier…
I thought about what a wreck I was when the credits were rolling… and yeah, as if I’d actually incured an injury or scar… it still hurts to think about it… I can vaguely just remember what it was like…

It took me a while to really get a handle of how serious the drug addiction was in the movie… there were a couple of huge parties, all of the high school alums getting together and such… a couple of times, Julian was intoxicated… he and Clay would find each other or have a heart to heart… I remember him waking up on a park bench and the two of them talking on cliffs just by the ocean…

it was clear that Blair asked Clay to come back for Julian more than her… but I didn’t really see what was going on until later…
when James Spader showed his face and I really got a good look at him (I’d never seen him before in my life… but yet, I saw the movie “Mannequin” a couple years prior with no recollection of that at all… and I had seen “Iron-Man” before Tropic Thunder, but didn’t care to take in the fact of who played Tony Stark, just that it was an unorthodox superhero with a different kind of origin story and just the way they handled it was excellent)…

let’s just say for the first hour of the movie, a lot of things were pretty tame… which gave way to boredom… I considered once or twice actually turning the movie off and not bothering to see how it ends…

I forget exactly what the incident was that kept me hangin’ around…
I think I’m going to assume that it was when Clay & Blair were at someone’s house for dinner (I think it was his family, not hers, but I can’t remember too well)… and Julian shows up there and Clay goes outside to talk to him… then there’s somewhat of a fight here

when I had an inkling of how bad things really were (I wasn’t too convinced up to this point)… that was when I decided to stick around… I had to see where this was going to end… and yeah, maybe parts of me believed that it was going to end sour even when I started watching with full attention… but I just wanted to see it through to the end, just to be sure

I was unable to answer this question before… whether or not I would have taken Julian seriously if someone else had played him… yes, I still would have watched the movie to see what was going to happen to him…
but I don’t think in a million years that anyone else would have messed up nearly as bad…

and if that 1 in a million chance actually worked out… hmm… I think I would have written my short stories on Julian all the same, but it would be like the year before… I’d write my piece and move on… it wouldn’t take hold of me for much longer than the first 4-5 months…
I think I was grieving for Julian for a good 6-7 months… it was a very long time

 

as it often is, as I said earlier with the negative stuff really sticking with you… the withdrawal scene was SCARY… where I thought there was no way he’d be able to recover from this… i.e. he wasn’t going to wake up that morning…

after blushing at some very near frontal nudity… my god… as much as I love the actor, I’m far too naive and prudish to allow myself… just in general…

the tennis court scene was pretty pivotal… I thought it was going to be a real turn-around… he’d make peace with the drug dealer and everything will be fine…

except he gave into temptation… again… and that was basically it… Clay & Blair had to rush in and save him… again… and drive as far away as they could manage…

the last 5 minutes of the movie (not counting the credits) felt like the longest of my life… they wake up the next morning, he’s in the corvette between them, not moving or anything….
I am literally holding my breath this whole time… amidst all the slow pacing, the sad music, the zooming out and zooming in again… not sure of my exact thoughts, but they were a mix of “he’s going to be okay, right?” and “he can’t be dead, there’s no way”…
the last scene where Clay’s explaining to Blair about when Julian lost his mom and how she told him that she was going to call him every day before she got home and after she died, he waited by the phone for her to call… until some sort of intervention happened… someone called and said she was in heaven now… that sort of thing…

but they were in black and Clay said he either died or he’s dead or something like that… that came out of the blue… and that was kinda the final nail in the coffin…

the movie more or less faded to black… “fade[d] away” to black… to Roy Orbison singing… I literally waited throughout the whole credits while I let everything sink in…
I don’t know when I started tearing up, if it was in the desert, after the funeral… but it felt like a good 10 minutes of quivering, silent sobbing…

I managed to drag myself upstairs and even in my own bed, I was still crying… I don’t know if I felt the pain in my chest that night or the following morning… it was probably the following morning… after I finally came to the end of that, I think I just felt so numb between everything and the drowsiness… it was edging towards 2am at the time…

I woke up the next morning… remembering almost immediately what I had done the night before… and I was a zombie all day long… pretty much… I kept his name close… feeling like a sword stabbing me in the chest at the mere thought of it and twisting… I think the majority of this went on so I could carve myself a reminder… as if I was so afraid to forget

It might have also been a long time since I really cared about something, so the pain kinda made me feel alive again, like I had something I had to do… needed to… and that was more or less my purpose…

I almost want to end the entry here and just go through that cycle all over again…
I mean, it might be good for me to pace myself with this entry… it’s meant to go through a lot of good things as well the negative things…

all I know was that I wrote that day’s entry… read his biography on Wikipedia, scowering that and his IMDB profile to see if there was even a hint of a time where he OD and nearly died, just like the movie… but it would seem that he was never that close to death’s door…
however, it seems that he was extremely close to losing his entire reputation, losing his sense of self and everyone around him… but it was certainly possible that… supposing this last time didn’t work, that it was the last possible thing that could have happened to him…. so I can only say THANK GOD that he stayed clean and sober and everything seemed to work out this time around

what I couldn’t get over… well, aside from my little tirade of “how could he do what he did after doing this movie? didn’t he learn ANYTHING from doing this movie?” (I’d ask that question alongside that Ally McBeal question… “how could you do it?” being the question in both cases)…
was this belief I couldn’t shake… after seeing his resolve at the tennis courts… I mean, I didn’t see him the past couple of times where he “cried help” but didn’t take full responsibilty for it… but I believed after what he went through that night that he’d never want to experience that again… I sure wouldn’t…

I believed that Julian was ready to really commit to sobriety this time, so I pointed the finger at Rip for being a goddam enabler… he just made matters worse by subjecting him to what’ll make him unhappy and therefore drive him to use again… therefore owing him more and more…

he could have resisted, but of course, Rip wasn’t going to let this go… and through his thinking, the only way for Julian to repay him is to work for him… doing that degrading “business”…

yesterday’s “Office” was great… for a number of things and I guess James Spader not being around was a nice perk too…
but yeah, I don’t think I’ll ever forgive him for what he did in this one movie… I’ll take this grudge to my grave unless he calls me out and tries to convince me that he is not a drug dealer, and only played one in a movie… it just seems like he always was getting this good parts in these movies and Robert didn’t get anything remotely interesting or challenging enough for his set of skills… which is considerable…

I spent that entire day… after the entry… started that Word.doc… copy/pasting his resume from IMDB and researched the hell out of it… made notes of the movies I wanted to see and which ones I didn’t want to bother with at all… (and I will go through each one I did see as well as the surprising list of movies I red-inked, watched and ending up loving)…

someone recommended “Chaplin” cuz he was nominated for an Oscar for it and it was his personal favorite Downey film… and by sheer coincidence, that was airing the following afternoon… it’s funny how everything was working out in the order it was working out…

and I think I will end this part of the entry tonight… and I’ll approach the next part tomorrow… the first couple movies… what I started writing, but didn’t really get around to finishing…

oh… of course, I started it with an idea… I wanted to write about something using my reaction to the movie because the misery was so vivid and so descriptive that I thought my writing could benefit from this new source of melodrama… I never see get that story off the ground… bit off more than I could chew… that’s what I get for trying to outline too… those always end in disaster

just gotta back this up on Word and I’ll sign off for the night

 [day two]

yeah, Internet’s back… I’m semi-awake, but I gotta catch a little breakfast…
I can’t help but feel that maybe I ought to just send this entry… cut & dry and start a new one….
or better yet… I think now I’ll do something that I never do… which is going through this entry, deleting all of my side-tracking and just keeping this strictly on topic. never woulda figured that Robert would be so difficult to keep on topic of when he’s usually the one side-tracking me

okay, I guess I didn’t do as much side-tracking as I figured… all my other musings, I have pasted on Word from last night so I could use them if I wanted to elsewhere

man… did Disney Channel pick a bad time to do a High School Musical marathon? SuperBowl Sunday… like seriously, who’s gonna be watching that?
I’m almost dying to write an entry about that right now, but I gotta stick to my guns…
and Internet’s gone again, so I’m stuck here for a while

I have at least 2 hours to get some stuff done… after that, the Eukanuba AKC Championship… will give me a preview of the Westminister competition a couple weeks prior (Mon/Tues the 13th/14th)

so… after those first 24 hours… which are usually the toughest when it comes to just about anything and everything life-changing…
going away to college and recooping from back surgery were two tough occasions…

this isn’t quite as extreme, but in the heat of the moment, it was all very much so…

I guess I’ll cue up that list of movies, so I can go through the ones I had to see… and the ones I red-inked but decided to see anyway

well, after that story that never got off the ground, I have my fan letter… overally erractic… the only question I really asked was about whether or not he OD and nearly got himself killed…
as far as I know, it was never to that point, but given all I know now, it’s extremely likely that if this last round of rehab didn’t take… :shrug: there’d be an insurmontable amount of consquences that I don’t want to have to list… but an overdose could have easily been in the wings

aside from “Weird Science” (which I had previously sworn never to watch again cuz it made no sense)… I’d only seen his last 4-5 movies. And I saw The Soloist because I thought it was an Oscar-worthy film… that Jamie Foxx could have easily gotten another Oscar for this challenging role. But after seeing a couple of interviews with the real deal (Steve Lopez & Nathaniel Ayers themselves), I look at the movie as nothing more than Hollywood’s reinactment of that amazing true story… these two guys were playing characters rather than me believing that they were actually these people… translation for the opening statement: I saw this movie, actually rented it from Blockbuster when it came on DVD… because it looked like a really good movie based on a true story… like Iron-Man, I came into the movie not knowing who this guy was… my eyes weren’t super open to actors back then in general… but just maybe he didn’t stand out for me as much as Jamie Foxx did… or in Iron-Man, he didn’t stand out as much as the whole story surrounding him

so let’s see…
taking aside “Weird Science” I’d only seen:

  • Iron-Man
  • Tropic Thunder
  • The Soloist
  • Sherlock Holmes
  • Iron-Man 2
  • Due Date

I put a couple of stars and notes next to the movies I had to see… as well as notes on the ones I really didn’t want to see… I’ll start with the positives.
I HAD to see, in the following order of importance:

  • Chaplin (saw it that Saturday afternoon starting at 1:45pm)
  • Johnny Be Good (Downey & Anthony Michael Hall back together again… it sounded like a better idea than it was…)
  • Chances are (romantic comedy)
  • Soapdish (I saw Whoopi Goldberg listed in the cast, so of course I had to check into it)
  • Heart & Souls (interesting sounding plot, definitely a very approachable idea too)
  • Only You (another romantic comedy… with Marisa Tomei)
  • Two Girls and a Guy (I wanted to see this at first because I heard it was written with him in mind… had no idea that it would be for the reasons it was)
  • Wonder Boys (sounded like a great concept for a movie, though no idea what kind of character he was playing or how much screentime he got…. actually wait… I wanted to see this for years and kinda forgot about it… after seeing “Spider-Man” I saw a bunch of Tobey Maguire movies but kept forgetting about this one cuz it was never around)
  • Ally McBeal-…. that was a GIVEN in every sense of the word… and luckily Reelz channel indulged my curiosity a couple of times
  • Kiss Kiss Bang Bang (I thought it sounded like an intriguing idea, but I think what really sold me on it and a bunch of other movies I eventually saw… Robert discussed them with James Lipton… I saw the one scene for this and thought it was so creative and original… that I just had to see the rest)
  • Zodiac (I heard a lot of good things about this movie when it came out and again, they discussed it in the Actor’s Studio)
  • Air America (I gave this one star of importance and eventually bumped it up cuz I got curious… plus the whole relationship with him and Mel Gibson was a good motivator too)

 

  • Home for the Holidays….

I don’t know what my take on this was, necessarily… I heard about it in the Actor’s Studio… that it was “the most relaxed performance in the history of cinema”… and it was kinda… he confessed to being high on the set of this movie…
I wasn’t really in any rush to see this, but since it was available on YouTube, completely uploaded… I figured I’d take a stab at it to fulfill my curiosity

here are a couple of random movies I saw, but didn’t necessarily mark one way or the other

  • A Guide to Recognizing your Saints
  • One Night Stand (whatever was uploaded on YouTube… I got curious after hearing about it in the Actor’s Studio)
  • A Scanner Darkly… curiosity again… one day I finally had the excuse to check into it… I saw maybe 40 minutes to kill time and stopped cuz the rotoscoping was just so weird and so odd that it was a lot to take in at first…
  • U.S. Marshalls… was always kinda curious about… but saw parts on it on TV… very bored during those scenes… and saw the rest on YouTube, specifically his scenes were uploaded :shrug: the bad film making was nearly as tangible here as it was with The Pick-up Artist… except this felt like bad writing more than film making

Then of course, the most infamous list of all… all of the movies I red-inked… and constantly had myself saying that you should “never say never”… starting from the most tame to the most proposterous

  • Charlie Bartlett– read he was playing the principal, the main antagonist, so I didn’t want to see him play the bad guy… nothing else about the movie really screamed… but after seeing a couple of scenes on YouTube, seeing it was uploaded in its entirity… I got curious and it was perhaps the greatest movie I almost didn’t see πŸ˜‰ more on this (and everything else later)
  • [the rest of] The Pick-up Artist… strictly on the grounds that I hate to leave a movie unfinished… just to see if it got any better… and for the sake of argument, it did, just not enough for me to want to see it all the time

really quick I have to acknowledge Bowfinger in some way… I think I red-inked it and said that I heard it sucked… I saw the 2nd half, most of which he isn’t even in… it was so painfully cheesy that I can’t bare to see any more of it…

  • The Shaggy Dog remake- not so much infamous… I marked that I didn’t want to see him play a villain… he was a dastardly villain… so much that I was actually impressed by how bad he was… never saw the original, but for what its worth… it was a CUTE movie… Tim Allen was the reason for me loving it, actually… he’s just such a great actor in kids’ movies
  • Gothika– I red-inked initially because it was a scary movie and I don’t like scary movies… but it was glaringly obvious, it’s a fact… Robert met his future wife filming this movie… so I figured I’d wait to Halloween to see it… my opportunity came in maybe April/May… and it wasn’t as scary as I thought it’d be…. but it was a bit of a let down that he wasn’t in the movie more… it IS a plus to see him play the straight guy for once
  • Fur: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus: I didn’t want to see this because it sounded weird… I mean, he’s playing a guy covered in a fur so you can’t see his face… but I was surprised in saying it was a very artsy film, very intriguing, GREAT acting and probably the only downside was the ending was a little anti-climatic and a bit sad… but I never imagined I’d like this movie as much as I did

so I guess now… the best way to go through this entry is to rank his films… okay, RATE his films… it’s a little hard to rank them cuz there’s so many….

just to give you something to go on:
I came into 2011 having seen 7 Downey films

in that year, I saw:
well, with what I saw, I have myself at seeing 32 of his 68 films…
which would mean that I saw 26 Downey films last year, all for the first time

and surely I’ll go into the movies I saw because he either suggested them or someone he worked with was in it… but that’s later on in my “reflection” section

Chaplin

at the time… I’d say that this movie was amazing… his acting was amazing… 4.5 stars
but after seeing it a couple of times and getting to know it & the source material: 3.5 stars…

I’m giving it as it is between a number of things… but here’s for my initial reaction to it:
I came into this movie only hearing of Charlie Chaplin once or twice but didn’t know anything about him…
it took him maybe 30 minutes to appear on screen (after that slow-paced set of opening credits, lol)… but when he did, there was a feeling I had to dislodge during the first several minutes… Julian was still very fresh on my mind so seeing his likeness was a little hard to take…
more to the point, I was blown away by this performance. I never saw him in such a role where he was so… studious and perfectionist… to the most precise details… he carried himself like an actor of great calibar and he commanded a sense of respect from me… at 26 no less… that’s quite amazing

of course there was once or twice where other characters got under my skin and I was booing at the screen… J. Edgar Hoover and James Woods as that stupid lawyer who threw out the blood test evidence

as much as I challenge Robert and his ability to play Sherlock Holmes… well, moreso in the first one… he really did come to task with the sequel… I really do challenge how he was here… it was among the best acting of his career… but to that POINT… everything before that was kinda trivial and only “Less than Zero” really stood out to anyone… either because he didn’t play lead or the movies weren’t necessarily good

one thing I must say, though… it didn’t show here so much as it does NOW… but this movie made his acting great… his acting was a highlight of the film, for sure, but it didn’t stop me from questioning things… in a rare event, I agreed with Ebert on hearing him saying that he didn’t like this movie and how it focused on Chaplin’s relationships and private life more than how he was such a man of precision and excellence in his movies…
I agree, I would have liked if they did the movie from that age…

but I’m sure Robert would agree in me saying that if you don’t like how the movie protrayed Chaplin or that it didn’t show anything to draw direct comparison to the films… save yourself a lot of trouble in that if you want to see Chaplin… go see his films and enjoy those rather than harping on the fact the biopic wasn’t a cut & dry attempt to recreate The Tramp as he appeared on screen

in addition, take into account his age now and the amount of skill and experience he’s gained… if anything has improved greatly between now and then, it’s his British accent… his voice is so much deeper and just so incredibly amazing that it can carry the accent almost like he’s breathing… if you want him breathing an accent, check out his Australian accent… it is FLAWLESS

okay, next…
I’ve made many a crazy decision when it came to… whatever road I traveled last year…

one thing I never thought I’d do is illegally download an entire movie… as a result, my otherwise flawless gmail account gets regular spam just cuz I said I’d sign up for a free $500 giftcard at Penneys…

“Kiss Kiss Bang Bang”
I simply HAD to see… rating: 5 stars… A+… I still think its one of his best and hopefully it’ll gain a following in later years

the result was probably one of the funnest, most hilarious experiences of watching a movie I ever had…

the one scene I saw was where Harry Lockhart stumbles into an audition for a movie and pulls off an excellent performance I mean, any man who can cry and get angry on cue like that… he has my vote…
but I didn’t know he was a thief running from the cops at the time, lol…

my first reaction: I’m LOVING his narration, listening to his voice… just the stuff he talks about in the narration… how the movie would sometimes stop for a few seconds while he explains something as if he’s commentating on his own movie… need I say any more than Shane Black is a GENIUS when it comes to writing screenplays… he is such an original

I was rolling around on the floor laughing on a number of occasions… one was with the spider… like go onto YouTube and type in “Kiss Kiss Bang Bang” and look for a scene titled “the dreaded tit spider”… no joke, they actually went there it is hilarious

the matter with the finger was something else entirely and man, did I feel really bad for him in this movie with all the crap that happened to him…
I was screaming so loud, trying to not to die laughing when the goddam dog (that came outta nowhere) took his finger and ate it… so much my sister ran upstairs to see what the hell I was laughing at (my folks were away that weekend, one of the reasons I decided to illegally download a movie that day of all days, lol)… “ah… the dog ate the finger!”… mixed with a lot of “oh my god” s and “no, no, no’s” … ah man… I’d since gotten through it and managed to keep it together during that scene now for the past couple viewings… but that is a GREAT movie… I’m almost wanting to put it in right now, actually… I’ve got time tonight for sure… no animΓ© at midnight
the chemistry he had with Val Kilmer wasn’t too bad either πŸ˜‰

Only you
uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…. 3 stars for each scene he is in… 2 stars everywhere else…

I know this is meant to be a chick-flick, focusing more on the girl finding Mr. Right than the guy getting together with the girl… but I came into this movie for him… was kinda spending the first hour dying to know when he’d come on screen…
then they get together, they have a good time… it’s fun and then all hell breaks loose when he admits he’s not who he said he was… he’s not the guy whose name she got off a Ouiji Board…

I love Marisa Tomei, but she was annoying me throughout the entire movie… cuz she was so blind to turn this guy down… and he’s a perfectly nice guy that spends the whole movie trying to get her back… and finally they get together at the end… yeah, it’s all nice and happy…
geesh, I never wanted a couple to get together so bad in my life (at least up to this point)

Charlie Bartlett
always will stand at 5 stars for the entire movie… and not just his screentime, but the whole movie

man, you’d think with all the Brat Pack movies I’d seen that I’d more easily go for high school movies than I did with this…

one time I was searching his name on YouTube… then I saw a couple of scenes… the first one was “Robert Downey Jr. Freakout scene”… which I was kinda curious to see what that was… I was BLOWN AWAY by his acting here… I’ve said it a million times how much he gets my attention when he’s yelling and freaking angry as mad… just commands respect and I can’t help but watch…

one thing led to another, it was uploaded on YouTube… watched it one night and it was one of the most awesome standout films of the year… it and Kiss Kiss Bang Bang were up there with a list of maybe 10 movies of 100+ I saw last year that blew me away more than I thought they would…

first of all, Charlie Bartlett himself just… I got him, I understood him… and I wanted to see him succeed… plus I never heard a teenager explain things so well, he’s an extremely eloquent speaker, a rare thing at that age…
second of all, the screen time between him and principal Gardner was almost 50/50… I would experience moments where I’d almost start to wonder when he’d be on a screen next… he was there so often that I rarely got the chance to miss him… which was a good relaxing feeling…
third of all… for months, for the many occasions I watched this, the movie meant a great deal to me… I was considering my options and it even had me in fits of sadness cuz I didn’t know what I was doing with my life (I still don’t, lol)… like it made me wish I were a better person…

a couple of times, I’ve gotten things out of seeing Downey films that carried on to other things…
Thing #1: Kat Dennings
because of this movie, I went on to see a couple of her others… some were good (The House Bunny, though by accident, forget she was in it), some were bad (Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist)… and of course, “2 broke girls” which I’ve come to enjoy strictly on the writing and the acting alone… plain & simple, I just love her

Home for the Holidays
movie: 3 stars… not super great, but not bad either…
his acting: 4 stars

this has to be one of the odder movies I’d seen in a while, if not my life… it had somewhat of an indie feel to it… although kinda similar to “The Family Stone” as a holiday-centric film…
what can I say… umm…

first of all, it was a little disconcerning, seeing how high he was during this movie… I felt a little off balance…
second of all, there was one scene I remember real well… at the table when his other sister outs him getting married to his boyfriend and keeping it secret and all that… his acting here was great

thirdly… it does pay off sometimes to see a movie twice…
knowing what I knew and then some the second time around, I could look at it objectively…

him being high still kinda bothered me a bit, but I wouldn’t go as far to say that it took away from his acting. In fact, Tommy is an extremely lovable character… very supportive of Claudia throughout the movie… there’s maybe 2-3 incidents where he’s just plain weird, but that might just be Tommy (though I can’t really explain why he is the way he is in some scenes) in how he was hashed out before Robert got the script :shrug:

Soapdish
uhhh…………….. somewhere between 2 and 3 stars… depending on who’s on set

this was a late night decision and I mean LATE night… well, I may have decided to watch this earlier that night… but after sitting through a couple hours of animΓ©, I think I was up to 3 or 4am watching this movie… fully uploaded on YouTube… (I would like to take this moment to thank YouTube, without whom, I wouldn’t have gotten access to all these great Downey films I might not get to see otherwise)

Sally Field was so over the top in this that I was just… I couldn’t stand her… now that I think about it, I kinda sympathize with David & Montana for wanting to get rid of her… she is so overdramatic that its crazy…
not to mention how some things in the soap were actually true in real life…

if anything, the best parts of the movie were individually uploaded clips… and I’d seen them enough times where I can just skip the movie altogether…

the only scene I saw prior was the banter between David and Rose (Whoopi Goldberg)… her asking how she can write for a guy who doesn’t have a head… apparently the character he wants to bring back was decapitated

and perhaps the funniest part was the killer ending when its revealed that Cathy Moriarty’s character is a man
…it’s a long story and I’d rather not go into it now… I’m sure that I went into great deal about this movie around March 2011

A Scanner Darkly
uhhhh… I’d say about 4 stars… for its originality, it was great, but after a while, the plot kinda broke down… simultaneously, so was the character Keanu Reeves was playing

taking the opportunity to finally see the whole movie… when my folks were away so there’d be no questions

it was a Sunday afternoon, if I remember right…
it was so far out that it was crazy, heck I felt intoxicated via a contact high… watching this movie felt like tripping on some illegal substance, even though I know nothing about that…

the rotoscoping was so cool to behold after getting used to it… the first 5 minutes were kinda tough cuz the character Freck is hallunciating all these bugs all over him… that’s just freaky…

actually, if I’m being honest, I remember very little about my inital reaction to the entire film… I don’t think my favorite line in the whole film really had any effect on me until I saw it on its own on YouTube…
the goddam bike is one thing… I had to start skipping that clip in the Actor’s Studio cuz I just had enough of it… “how come its a 18 speed bike if it only has 9 gears?”
like, for crying out loud, why do they care how many gears are on a bike? It makes no sense!
oh yeah, they’re tripping on Substance D, a lot of stuff doesn’t make any sense…

Keanu plays a guy working for the government, going undercover trying to see who is dealing Substance D… so he has surviellience on the house… then Barris sets up his own surviellence…

after this car accident occurs (I’d have to see the movie again to see how/why it occurred)… they’re riding in the car while it’s being towed…
Woody Harleson thinks the accident means someone’s out to get Keanu… and is worried that the house will get ransacked while they’re gone

Barris attempts to comfort them in saying that if someone breaks into the house, cameras will record them… assuming they come through the front door…
Woody asks what if they go through the back door or the bathroom window (like that infamous Beatles song)… Barris says to increase the chances the robbers to go through the front door, he left it unlocked… and in case they don’t know its unlocked, he put a note on the door…

so Woody goes through this piece of logic a mile long that the robbers could easily take the note down, go inside & ransack the house and lock the door behind them… and they won’t know one way or the other if Barris is lying…

finally he says he’s kidding and only a psychotic would leave the front door unlocked with a note on the door
“What’d you write on the note, Jim?”
“I wrote ‘come on in, the door’s unlocked'”

:falloff: omg, I’m feeling trippy just recollecting this… yeah, its a super trippy movie…

but it gets out of hand a bit when Keanu starts to get out of hand and he more or less gets addicted to Substance D and has to go into rehab… then all the other characters kinda disappear… well, Barris gets arrested, don’t know what happens to Woody… I think Frek eventually overdoses, but ends up on a drug trip that lasts for all eternity rather than dying

I’d recommend anyone to just see it once to see the rotoscoping… I’m still kinda waiting for that to cast on…

and if not for this movie, I might not have checked into “The Adjustment Bureau”… another Philip K. Dick novel… that dude was heavily into government conspiracies and surveillience… that was a great movie too

Heart & Souls
one movie I think I’d gotten overtired of… but for the time being, I gave it 4.5 out of 5 stars…

it’s a very cute movie, very interesting how everything worked out…
it was great for Robert cuz he got to use all kinds of acting abilities and tricks when he was possessed by each of the ghosts…
a great scene is when he’s in the boardroom and eventually runs out cuz Julia and Milo possessing him back to back kinda makes him appear insane

its nice to see how this whole movie ties together, but after the first 2 times, I decided to just watch it from the first hour onward… not just to focus it on Robert, but just cuz the goodbye scene with Thomas and the four ghosts is so heartbreaking that I nearly teared up a couple times watching it…

for what it was at the time I saw it, I thought the movie was great fun, very sweet, and all that… but it kinda dawned on me after a while that he has done greater acting in other movies… and sometimes he doesn’t look like he’s thoroughly enjoying himself…
and I guess seeing him play a character not completely comfortable in his own skin, lacking that confidence… a little bit of a turn-off… I’d prefer him knowing how to fight in his movies, but aside from that, I like when he’s confident in his roles and they seem to enrich him as a person, rather than it being just another movie

The Pick-up Artist
ugh…. just the mere thought of it has me cringing cuz I know how bad it is… 2 stars…

you’d think, Robert and Molly Ringwald was a winning combination in the 80’s… but not so much… it was kinda like Pride & Prejudice where you didn’t know if the two people would ever get together…
Sieskel & Ebert talked about this more from the POV of Dennis Hopper rather than Robert’s performance… not that I’m super surprised, he wasn’t a big name yet…

its odd, but seeing him play a casanova was a turn-off… he was very superficial… not to mention he wasn’t really cute when he was 21, not so much as he is now

I saw him again in “Weird Science” some time later… at 19/20, he was adorable… but in this movie, not so much

it took a while for him to win me over… this is interesting, though… just realized this… James Toback likes to write for Robert in that in his roles, he has something that grounds him amidst all the crazyness of his lifestyle…

kinda like the relationship with his mom in “Two girls and a guy”… he has this sweet relationship with his grandma, who he’s taking care of with her diet and wanting to make sure she doesn’t get duped by this guy she met in the park… that all works out very well at the end πŸ˜‰ which is very nice

you’ve heard in movies about these guys who live life one way and after they fall in love, they completely change for the better… its kinda like this and Molly Ringwald is someone he falls for so hard that he doesn’t want anything/anyone else by the end of it…

this is also an example of that magic Robert often brings with him on-screen…
you spend enough time with this guy and he’s going to win you over nearly every time…

he won me over fully after hearing him sing “Blue Suede Shoes” to deter a mugger… go figure…
but yeah… he does win me over after a while in this movie when he more or less talks me into watching the rest of it to see what he does and it has some pleasing results.

not so much so that I’d want to subject myself to the whole movie that frequently

Johnny Be Goode
overall: 2 stars… I give them the same rating, but it shocks me to say that even “The Pick-up Artist” was a better movie than this

firstly cuz Robert only has a minor role in this movie, so he doesn’t get a lot screen time… and of course, Leo is WEIRD… beyond all reason, I can’t explain my way around that…

secondly, the plot is RIDICULOUS… I mean, I’ve heard of colleges buying athletes, but it is so unrealistic that all these schools go to all these lengths (even bribing his best friend) to get him to play football for them…

I don’t think I can go much further than that… this movie is just horrible all around

it more or less convinced me that I should just never watch any of his 80’s movies ever again cuz no good ever comes of them… nothing memorable enough for me to want to return…

but of course I had:

Chances are to contend with
rating: 3 stars
his acting: 4 stars

I’d been wanting to see that for a while and finally it aired on regular TV (not Encore, which I don’t have)…

my first thoughts: I can take a lot when it comes to movies and usually with the fantasy based ones, I can figure a lot out and not have a lot explained to me…

the plot just seemed very improbable, lol… if not a little over the top in places

Robert shines in this movie… gets to play piano, which is always kinda nice… and I guess like Siskel & Ebert went on to say, he made this movie work and it would have failed without him…

it’s so sweet seeing him play a romantic role, I liked that a lot… and I think the best part was that everything worked out in the end… I was a little worried when he fell down the stairs, but it was one of the best plot devices they had very convenient that amnesia he incured from the fall erased everything about him knowing about his past life…

but I think like “Heart & Souls” it’s another movie I’d had my fill of and should probably not watch again for a couple years or just plain and simple, I wouldn’t be enjoying myself

Guide to Recognizing your Saints
rating: 2.5 stars
his acting: 4 stars

this was a late night adventure too…
:sigh: how can I put this…

IFC, lots of commercials… nearly falling asleep once or twice…

the commercials made it hard to get into at first… I started to worry about how much screentime Robert was going to get cuz the majority was flashbacks…
I think I was losing interest within the first hour… but I stuck around, perservered best I could…

and I guess it paid off… somewhat

I think the biggest turnoff about the movie was the fact Shia LeBeouf wasn’t playing the kind of character I was used to seeing him play… I didn’t really like him at all, thought he was out of his element… there was maybe one good scene towards the end, an emotional scene too… where I thought his acting had any merit…

then there was Robert who was almost reminisient of Tony Stark, looked just like him… so that was comforting… his body language and actions spoke for him… kinda the way they do in The Soloist, but for different reasons…
he was great in this movie, but amidst everything wrong with it… and the fact it was super late at night, I kinda lost the meaning of the movie by the end of it πŸ˜•

Wonder Boys
overall: 5 stars
his acting: 3 stars

it’s a very rare occasion when I see a movie and he is nowhere near close to being my favorite part of the movie.
I thought it was a really well written plot. Michael Douglas was really good in this role. Tobey Maguire was great…
Robert was…. kind of a jerk… a little weird (his sex life is the strangest part… he first comes on screen with a man in a drag, who eventually asks Michael Douglas to drive him elsewhere… saying that he didn’t know what Terry Crabtree was into or what his intentions were, but he wanted no part of it… then Terry and Tobey Maguire got involved… almost in a way that he was taking advantage of the poor kid… a little disconcerning, if not very)… he was on Michael Douglas throughout the entire movie, wanting to find out about this book he’d been working since he sold his best seller, first and only

then as it turns out, he likes Tobey’s writing and goes on to represent him…

Katie Holmes as Hannah is also not to be missed… the cast was great… its just that Terry Crabtree will probably go down as the Downey character I hated the most… or plain and simple, I didn’t like him at all

one thing I will say for this movie: it’s a great movie for the writer’s writer

Fur: The Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus
overall rating: 4 stars

a couple months after “Less than Zero” and everything else, this marks the first movie of half a dozen that moved my mind towards my tiptoeing around and dabbling in sex as a subject…
it’s kinda hard not to with this movie…

the first several minutes can be summed up in two words: Sexual Tension

it is so thick that you could cut through it like butter… Nicole Kidman was nearly flawless in this role, where I’m surprised she didn’t even get an Oscar nomination for it… indie films often miss out…

then there was Robert, who played Lionel… a circus freak from the 1950’s who suffered from hypertrichosis… that wolfboy disease where he’s covered in fur…
just anticipating these two characters getting together, meeting for the first time… phew… that was paced SO WELL and I don’t get to say that very much

then when I saw him the first time, I wasn’t freaked out… I wasn’t unnerved or anything… the inner beauty of his character made him shine so much. and his eyes were very expressive, though I couldn’t confirm it was him through those eyes alone… I didn’t know him well enough, still don’t to be able to make that distinction

I guess this might be the only time I get to say this: I really didn’t like Ty Burrell in this movie (I have since seen him in “The Incredible Hulk” where I thought, despite the fact the Hulk stole back his girlfriend, he had a good head on his shoulders about the whole situation… and “Modern Family”… a great ensemble to say the least)…
clearly he was jealous (he starts to grow a beard halfway through this movie, thinking Diane prefers hair guys, lol)… and he’s very unsympathetic towards Lionel when he hears that he’s dying…
although, who can really blame him? lol… he was stealing his wife right from under him

I can’t say for sure how much this movie was true to form… Diane Arbus never had an affair with a circus freak like this, nor was she strictly about photographing weirdness… she became best known for that, but it wasn’t the only thing she did… in fact, I think she loathed the typecasting…
but I think her suicide was the result of more things… mental illness, a common thing with the more ingenius artists of their trade.
I never would have pegged her as someone with mental illness watching Nicole Kidman…

but the theme of the film is very clear… it starts with her being in her husband’s shadow, feeling she really doesn’t contribute anything to the business and it’s more than obvious that they haven’t slept together in a long time… that’s why she’s kinda longing to branch out and just find some sort of escape from this mundane existence

sometimes, there’s nothing sexier than a mystery man

what REALLY got me about this movie… after Diane and Lionel spend the night together (and I didn’t see any of this cuz it was deleted from YouTube… for multiple reasons… which I’m glad for… I want to keep a blind eye to that frontal nudity… nevermind the fact that the hypertrichosis would provide ample coverage… I can barely even type that without just wanting to back away immediately… I want to keep my asthetic distance, thank you very much

but the next scene later, its the following morning… Lionel was completely shaved and Robert was virtually unrecognizable… and I’m not kidding in saying that actually, I preferred him when he had all that fur
I guess you could say the magic was gone… the mystery was gone… and the ending was very sad and a bit…. just promptly ended as it was… Lionel swims into the ocean where he can die under his own terms, rather than hacking his way through the last month of his life, a slow painful death by suffocation

Gothika
rating: 3 stars

it wasn’t nearly as scary as I thought it was going to be…
I was disappointed that he didn’t get a lot of screen time in this…

and I didn’t really understand it until I read it up on Wikipedia… that Halle Berry did all the things she did in this movie cuz she was possessed by a victim of her husband’s and the questionable business he was in… that was plain creepy…

Penelope Cruz was also really good in this… which is also why I really liked her in the latest Pirates movie 😎

but yeah… it was good for what it was, but it wasn’t a grand slam by any means

“It’s just a really good scary movie”…. uhh….. I kinda prefer the psychological thrillers to slasher movies (although I leave it off at “The Exorcist” a psychological thriller I never want to see again cuz I lost sleep over it)… scary movies that have a sense of logic to them when you see later on why things worked out the way they did…

this was a little unbelievable :shrug: in my opinion…. Robert probably was promoting this with a smile on his face cuz he got a great gal out of the deal

just to cut away for a little bit… a couple of movies that I saw because of him, not because he was in it:

  • The Big Lebowski– cuz Indio didn’t know who The Dude was, so he had to rent the movie to show him all about Jeff Bridges… I’ve have to see it again to really give my opinion on it… I just thought it was kinda weird, though some of it merited the cultural references… but by association, I saw a couple of Coen Brothers films after this for a comparsion like “Fargo”
  • City Lights/Gold Rush/The Circus/The Great Dictator/Modern Times and all the other Charlie Chaplin films I’d seen… that’s self-explainatory… The Artist could also fall under this category
  • CloserThe Holiday:  I had Jude Law on my mind after seeing Sherlock Holmes a couple more times… “Closer” had me until the very end when his character disappointed me… The Holiday, not so much, that was a great movie
  • Planes, Trains and Automobiles– to compare with “Due Date” cuz they kept being put together as buddy/road movies… I might be more than a little biased in saying that this movie was kinda painful to watch and I really didn’t want to hang out with Steve Martin more than I had to… I can almost imagine Chevy Chase doing that role instead and it being a homerun
  • Rain Man– cuz Robert said in that MTV Blockbuster featurette that you should check into it if you haven’t seen it in a couple months… that was a CHARMER if there ever was such a movie Dustin Hoffman was so good
  • Real Genius– cuz this one interviewer seemed to remember it more than Weird Science… and I wanted to compare 80’s movies… this movie was a little far-fetch’d… and actually Weird Science, in seeing it again, wasn’t as unbelievable as I thought it was… Robert: 1, Val Kilmer: 0
  • Butch Cassidy & The Sundance Kid– Jude Law kept saying how their take on Sherlock & Watson was like “Butch & Sun-donce”… so I had to see the movie to compare… that was an awesome movie… and the chemistry between Newman & Redford was great
  • Cowboys & Aliens– cuz Jon Favreau also directed “Iron-Man”… I’ll have to see this again to be sure whether or not I buy into it or not… but I didn’t think it was a complete flop

more on this later…

Zodiac
rating: just barely scratching at 3 stars

I forgot who said it in the Biography, but he made a comment I agree with: “I watched this movie wondering ‘when’s Robert Downey Jr. coming back on’.” I was wondering why his name was listed third on the cast list… but it didn’t take too long to figure it out…

slowly but surely, Mark Ruffalo got more and more screentime as David Toschi of the SFPD… and Jake Gyllenhaal as Robert Gray-Smith spent a great deal of the 2nd half working on interviewing and researching for the book he was writing…

Robert was so great in this movie in the scenes he was in… but after that… plus all the commercials on IFC (yet again, but at least this was during the day)… I started to feel very numb after a while… not knowing where this was going, there was such a tension in the atmosphere here… but it was kinda… well, just like in the fashion of the actual case, it was unresolved

let’s see, a couple other movies by association:

  • G-Force– Jon Favreau did a voiceover… but it wasn’t all that great
  • Fright Night– long stretch… they were remaking the movie with Charlie Bartlett in the leading role… and I kinda wanted to see if they killed the vampire so I know that Colin Farell is gonna get it too… Robert kinda gave me another reason to really dislike this guy by assocation, lol… though not nearly as much as Christian Bale
  • Little Miss Sunshine– I’d been meaning to see it, but he said it was an example of an indie film that did really well… for what it is, yeah, it is definitely a really cute movie 😎 an off-beat comedy in every meaning of the word
  • Hound of the Baskervilles (1959 version)- Sherlock Holmes, need I say more?
  • Fight Club– David Fincher film… need I say more… that was kind of a disappointment and AMC sucks with all its commercials

that’s basically it, I think

The Shaggy Dog remake came a bit later, but I think I more or less summed it up

Air America
rating: 3 stars

it wasn’t a GREAT movie, but it wasn’t bad… a little better than The Pick-up Artist… oddly enough, these two movies have one thing in common, in that I was freaking half the time that he was going to get himself killed (in “The Pick-up Artist” I thought the mob was going to rub him out for getting involved with Dennis Hopper’s affairs)

its a good concept and all that, but some Hollywood-esque things got in the way after a while :shrug:

I’m exhausted, not really in the mood to discuss Sherlock 2… I’d spend too many entries harping on that already… so there’s really no point to talk about it until it comes out on DVD… then I can dispense and erase the negativity I feel at the mere thought of that project…
just some bad karma left behind for the time being… I think about it and feel kinda ill

hopefully with time I can forget the unpleasantries and start over… kinda the way I did with the original, though it was never to the point where I was remotely disappointed…

Two Girls & a Guy
rating: uhhhh…. I guess 3.5 stars…

it was never meant to be overally spectucular… and I thought the concept was interesting… having it being a three person cast, all on one set like it was a play instead of a movie…
and I’m one who likes writing a lot of dialogue, so it’s definitely writer’s writer type of movie…

for what its worth, it was a good movie… but there were a couple of times where I just was way too into things that my mind wrapped around things it wasn’t meant to wrap around… it is glaringly obvious sometimes that he is in a very bad place right now… he wasn’t altogether there… I mean, he was sober on set (this was around the time he was doing regular drug tests before he could work)… but there’s this troubling glazed look in his eyes that tells me that outside of this movie, he’s struggling with a lot…

it’s very disconcerning… the best part, I think, was him getting to use his many talents… he sings, he plays piano, gets to play an original piece… he uses a number of accents (including when he quotes Shakespeare… which is so good, lol… he was just a couple years fresh from doing a couple of period-piece movies that I will never want to see… that kind of stuff really doesn’t interest me

I’d be lying if I didn’t say that the entire year was working towards the release of Sherlock 2…
I’d been going on and off for a while when it comes to him and his movies. I’d give myself a break when I got sick of him, and usually I can crawl right back up and get back to where I once was

the only way I can describe it that amidst all the press he did for Sherlock 2, appearing somewhere on TV nearly every day that last week…
everything went bust on the day of… and I don’t think I ever fully recovered from it… as much as I try to rationalize it and use facts to explain and talk myself out of my disappointment… the darkness is still kinda there and I still feel kinda worked up about… although I have no idea how/why… it just is that way…

that’s kinda why I don’t want to watch “Heart & Souls” anymore… that was part of my attempt at a pick-me-up that didn’t quite work…
“Two girls and a guy” added fuel to the fire in that it was another thing to kinda depress me…

yep… it just kinda feels like I flat-lined on everything…

but this entry and things I’ve been able to write gives me a lot of hope… I can still look back on things and feel that way about them that I used to…
heck, I’m looking back on Charlie Bartlett and Kiss Kiss Bang Bang… loving them to death and saying how much they really gave me a good time…

I kinda forgot to mention “Lethal Weapon” among the movies I saw by association… I guess cuz I had seen it before… though I didn’t remember much about it… it’s a personal favorite of Robert’s and it’s written by Shane Black… he had that genius ability of screenwriting back in the 80’s and really hasn’t made anything work since then…

it would seem that good things are ahead, though… Robert has been quoted saying that Shane Black’s script for “Iron-Man 3” is the best script he’s read in 5 years…

I mean, he goes the extra mile for his roles, really making sure that he knows them backwards and forwards… he wouldn’t be promoting these movies if he didn’t believe in them…
and it really does seem these days that he enjoys his job… he does movies that he loves and knows as a movie-goer that he isn’t going to short-change anybody

I guess this entry wouldn’t be quite complete without giving a little homage to

“Ally McBeal”

a reoccuring role in Season 4 that helped him a great deal after coming off that prison sentence… but all that negative stuff aside… oh my god, I don’t think I ever fell so hard for a TV character before……………………………… ummm… okay, scratch that… there was someone else long before him… but that was an animated series, that’s different

but wow… he brought so much to that movie… for the weeks he was on, it was like a daily routine/ritual… setting my alarm to 4pm for when he’d come on, not that I needed reminding… wow… that was such a good time… so much that I’m almost beyond words with this…
even if after a while, he wasn’t feeling up to continuing with this career path, I never could tell he wasn’t completely happy… he really put everything he had into it

it was also kind of the start of a regular thing when it came to Robert…
I’d be feeling so-so about things, but when I was watching him on screen, I felt so great… it was a great kind of high…

but when he went away for a while and I didn’t get to really see him in much of anything, his absence was easy to denote… maybe if I keep my mind on the positives then I can reel myself back in… I just gotta keep it fresh with the clips and the movies…

Larry Paul is nothing more than perhaps the perfect boyfriend… the best any girl had ever had in the history of TV… he had this way of knowing her better than she did… he had her back and when he needed the extra support, she had his…
plus he sang a couple times on the show… that’s pretty much the biggest perk there was…

the only negative thing about him was that he came with a little baggage… a son from another marriage and he’s friends with his ex-wife… and his son’s mom wants to steal him back…
I could live with the fact he’s friends with his ex-wife… but not the backstabbing bitch wanting to steal him away from Ally… just the way it ended SUCKED… there was a miscommunciation, misunderstanding… and after everything they went through, it just fell to pieces…

in a strange way, it was kinda like losing Julian all over again…
it would have worked except for the fact that Hollywood is very clichΓ©, predictable and unforgiving

there could have been another way to write him out of the show after Robert fell into trouble again… although you can’t really do much more than what they did… I mean, they already killed off Billy, they couldn’t kill off Larry Paul, that’d be too similar of circumstances

2) Robert has this way, whether in his movies or in real life, of having me look at things beyond the clichΓ©s and the predictability… I look at things and dream that they could work out completely differently, when otherwise I would usually limit myself to accepting how things turned out…

those two instances aren’t the first and certainly won’t be the last things that I can’t abide by… I know that there was another way to make things work out…

that’s what makes me write sometimes… rewriting things my own way to write a better ending…

I was so crazy about Larry Paul that I had to write about someone just like him, so I have a way of remembering how he made me feel when I watched him on screen…

heck, I was driven so mad by Julian’s death that I must have rewritten 3-4 times ways where he could legitly have gotten a second life, how he could have gotten away and made a better life for himself…… okay, that’s a stretch… but just saying there are ways to save him instead of just letting him suffer cuz he couldn’t control his addiction

sure, it’s a common thing in real life and not every story can have a happy ending… but when it comes to this, came to this… I was so rabid about rewrites…

Music’s a pretty big part of all of this…

I’ve worked on a little bit of a playlist of songs that inspired sketches or otherwise make me think of him:

  • I’m with you- Avril Lavigne… oddly enough this song came to me in a dream even though I haven’t heard it in ages… and it just seemed to fit my situation perfectly
  • Hazy shade of winter- goes without saying
  • Broken- I wrote maybe … whoa, 1,000 words on this… but I was the one broken… it was something of a temporary funk I was in and haven’t been able to figure out where it was goign since then
  • Frozen- Madonna: had me thinking about Julian towards the last minute of the song… so I wrote about sketch about him that kinda turned into a sex scene, strongly enough… the 2nd time my character has gotten so self-righteous that she puts aside her reservations about pre-martial sex that she goes through with it cuz she thinks it’ll make him feel better… like a pick-me-up or something…. strange how my mind was working at the time
  • Every breath you take- self-explanatory
  • for a while… “Judas” had me thinking about him and how it was like going to the dark side in that I was spending so much time with him… :shrug: I have since erased that illusion and now its about the choreography alone

On average… it would seem that for every 10 projects I started about this guy… only 3 of them saw an ending and ample conclusion… strangely enough…

a lot of them were very momentary, time-sensitive things where I had to write to dispel negativity into something… although the Avril Lavigne song started with good intentions, I just lost interest in writing about one of my characters and what he’d be like at present or if I knew him in real life…

then of course…

“The Futurist”

a CD, album, record unlike anything I’d come across before

I came into it, once I finally got my hands on it… not quite knowing where it was going to go… I liked how it started so much… loved the first two songs, which I’d heard once or twice already in other places… then it got boring for a while… the title track had me a little lost…
Little Clownz took a while, but eventually turned my head…
5:30 was one of my early favorites…
“Your Move” had me scratching my head… why is this in here and what is its purpose?

“Hannah” had me scratching my head… again… didn’t know where it was going or what it was about

and of course “Smile” had me a little emotional… usually it would be the fact the album is over now and I’m kinda all alone in my room, with no light… as if I spend the last 45 minutes chilling with a good friend

there have been more occasions recently… well, not in the first couple months where I’d have it rotating once a week, roughly… where I’d think of it and wonder why I’m not a better person and it made me wish I was better…
but I wanted to go into it, trying to decode it because it was the closest thing to spending time with the real deal… nothing takes you closer to a person than music they write, if they have that talent

and I guess I’d always kinda had a thing for piano players… I don’t know why… but sheer coincidence, that was his instrument of choice…

he’s not even a musician by trade and he makes me never want to attempt songwriting again…. lol…
as unorthodox as his style is, he gets something out of his work… and at the end of the day, he can play a piano really well with both of his hands doing their part… I’m lucky if I can get one hand to play the right notes

plus like I’ve said, I’ve been around too much music where I can’t write anything of my own… sooner or later, I’ll be on a key and start playing something someone else wrote

and for the moment, I’ll save it here… mark it as private and then work on it later… I don’t want to come back here later mid-entry and see that my Internet conked out again πŸ˜•
PAIN in the butt

 

the interesting thing with me and all of these interests that I have… and they go further than interests sometimes… they almost become… okay, they DO become a way of life… like my daily ritual if you will…

and what I’ve gotta say for sure…

the one thing that kinda set this past year aside from the rest was… well, I’ll level it with myself. Even though there were several occasions where I was harder on myself because I look at the way Robert does things, the way he thinks, the way he explains things… even his movies… all those things have me wishing I was a better person.
Maybe it’s because of the close contact and the amount of time spent… but I’ve drawn some parallels between his former condition and the one I’d been in for a while.

The reason I’m going into all this now is that I really haven’t been feeling entirely fine these past couple days…
and I’ll say that I have been completely miserable on some occasions… it kinda feels like this pit I’m never going to be able to climb out of… pretty much I’m ready to almost buckle or break completely falling into one direction and it’s not going to be good.
That thought terrifies me sometimes and I’ve tried to keep myself busy to keep a distance…

but the two things that I have going for me aren’t fulfilling me at all. I’ve tried to push myself to put this distance between us and focusing on my writing, but my story has been in neutral for a long time…

I’m afraid to move forward because I think it’s going to lose all meaning… I mean, if I just took out the prologue when I sent sample chapters to agents, would they be more likely to take me?
I don’t know… I’m starting to think that might be a good idea, but I highly doubt it’ll increase my chances.

Besides, I want to know my characters backwards and forwards, hash them out until I could explain them as well as Robert can pitch a movie… maybe not as eloquent as he can with all the right words in the right places… but I want to be that close to my work where I can do that…

then of course, he’s been making me happy… and I was about to say that of all the things I’d been into…

I dunno… “Judas” being the song of the moment, despite how I can darken things up, saying that I like indulging too much for my own good…
it’s been a relatively healthy relationship in that I’m honest with myself a lot of the time… and he’s really made me feel great more than making me miserable or like with Prince, just being taken aback by things he did…

let’s just say… for the record, his approval rating is somewhere like 92%… where that percentage of the time, spending time doing whatever… I feel good while doing it and as a result, afterwards, I feel great… at least until I start feeling guilty when I overindulge… shoot, I gotta go….

had to catch the pilot of “2 broke girls”… was most curious to see how Caroline and Max got together, how they became roommates and pretty much filling in some of the blanks… also how they came up with the idea for the cupcake business…
yeah, only $250,000 away from becoming legit

yep, at least they have goals.

And honestly, I don’t think I could have decided to check this show out, had it not been the fact… well, long story short:
Robert–> “Charlie Bartlett”–> Kat Dennings= his on-screen daughter, Susan

nope, I think that this movie was what caught my attention about her… I mean, it wasn’t a huge part and it wasn’t… okay, it was kinda pivotal and important to the plot… but she had this too-cool-for-school attitude that I kinda liked…

but all of that is nothing compared to her on this show… I mean, if I weren’t so uptight about not offending anyone, I’d be just like her… that take-no-prisoners attitude and damn, the inneundos she uses, whether alluding to sex, drugs or just all things kinda inapproriate (also kinda shocking when the show is on as early as 8:30 at night)

she’s just so bad-ass in that series… nothing quite like it.

I was gonna say that I’d give myself until 12:15 and I’d curl up with a CD for the night… but I think I’ll give myself another couple minutes… just got back and everything…

I think I’ll need at least another afternoon to get more together… but really is there a lot further I can go in this discussion… probably have said a lot of this already…

 

another thing he kinda did was help change my outlook on addiction a bit… in that I ought to stop judging people who are kinda well known for doing all the wrong things…
I’d gotten kinda crazy with the biases and playing devil’s advocate, pretty much saying “what right do I have to judge someone for their habits when I give all these reasons to back him up…”

not that there was any excuse for that and heck… there really is no need to really get into it…
I’ll admit that the first couple of months were full of tears for a number of reasons… Julian and Larry Paul were mega reasons… their losses from their storylines…
but there were a couple of times where I’d watch some clip… either his Biography special or the Oprah interview or something… that goes throughout his career, into his past or whatever…

it wrecked me up pretty bad… and its not entirely a new thing for me… harping on the past, and being sad about it when all these events have long been dealt with… doesn’t make it any easier to take

hey, depending on when you come into someone’s career, you can go in with an initial perception about them…
I consider myself very lucky to have come into his career at this high point where everything is going so well for him… but all the same, I am even more thankful that everything worked out as well as it did for him… always giving him more credit than I do patting myself on the back for being fortunate to discover someone at a period of stability and success

and I guess after “Less than Zero,” I had to see for myself (more like read, but you get my point) what he went through in his personal life… just to answer those questions as to whether or not it ever got to that breaking point…
and I guess one thing led to another and I ended up learning so much more than I really bargained for…

I wasn’t really too curious about how he got his start in show biz, though I did wonder about his dad… if there was a Downey Sr. in all this because he was going by Downey Jr. this whole time (well, the billing started in 1987 with “Less than Zero” and he hadn’t been called anything else since)…

I kinda seem to target, unintentionally, celebrities who don’t come from typical backgrounds… I mean, his family were practically Bohemian hippies that did indie films… and all the off-beat movies his father did, he grew up on those, thinking that was the norm… not that anyone really has a typical childhood to begin with, heck, is any childhood typical and what would be considered typical?

there was that, plus the fact that his dad got him started on drugs… gave him his first joint at 7,8,9…
I know what some of the YouTube comments thought of that… I don’t know if that really shocked me or made me angry or much of anything… I think I just said “whoa”…
strangely enough, I do buy his explanation about the time it was, how it was part of the culture and how it was a “staple like rice”

seeing how Robert is now… a lot of this is extremely hard to believe… and my God, he is probably the best looking former drug addict I’d ever seen… not that I’d seen a lot of drug addicts in my life… but considering all that, he looks amazing…

its interesting with celebrities and people in general… how these days, its like age is nothing but a nobody cuz 50 looks a lot younger than it did a decade ago… he’s going on 47 and… I guess he does look that age, but at the same time… he’s never looked better

I was always kinda iffy around drugs… never tried a cigarette in my life, wanted to keep my drinking minimal unless I was with family as my way of showing self-control (never went out of control with drinking and I mean to keep it that way)…
needles in general have given me the creeps since all the prep work I went through for my back surgery… just cringing and twitching thinking about it…

after seeing a presentation at my high school about drugs, showing pictures of addicts and what the drugs did to their bodies… that really gave me the creeps… and maybe I got complacent for a while…
but having a face to put to addiction… I’m talking about Julian here… all the more reason to want to stop it from happening to people… just the idea to losing anyone like that is something that terrifies me and will forever be engrained in my DNA, running through my veins

those thinking about my statements earlier… I’m feeling a little better now, kinda tired… got my mind off things for a bit…
I’m thinking I’ll end right here and pick up tomorrow morning/afternoon…

I guess every now and then I kinda want to prove to myself that I don’t need to indulge to get happiness… that I’m not leaning on all this like a crutch…
I think I can finally watch that clip tonight and just take it down with my iPod from there

 

got one more clip lined up… this is almost surreal, but I swear its true… I’m watching this, wondering to myself… “is this the same guy I’d been going on about for the past couple days… about the year I spent with his movies and just about everything I could get on my hands on?”
kinda makes me feel like I’d taken so many liberties that he’d have enough ammo to… I’ll just leave it at that…

man, have I just pulled a “Kirk Lazurus” with this whole thing, just taking things to the utmost extreme when I didn’t really have to play it so close to the vest?

[day three]

I did not get around to listening last night… and it was just as well… it was hard to get up this morning in general. Kinda nervous about the big game, but as long as its anyone’s game by the 4th quarter, that’s not much else I can ask for

I’m not quite sure what happened last night, but I felt kinda sick… but that’s kinda ridiculous to think that all of this is the reason for it.

I mean, my immunity felt like its taken a couple of hits this week… a little coughing here and there, a little sneezing, could just be my bedroom…

either I gotta take things extra slow or just work through it… it’s more or less a mind game I’m playing with myself at this point

I made a new year’s resolution to stop being so hard on myself and I’m doing a bang-up job at that so far πŸ˜•

I dunno… if Robert ever came across all this and managed to this point, what would he think aside that I might be a little loopy and left of center…
by no means did I want him to ever be the compass towards my happiness, controlling whether or not I’m enjoying life…
would he get on my case or say “don’t worry about it, it’s fine”…

right now, I really don’t feel too fine… feels like there’s a ball in my stomach…

I can’t help thinking that after finishing this entry, I’m gonna write a story on all this, but what would the story line be?
I find that I’m getting far too attached to someone, feeling too strongly when I know I really don’t have a chance and I purposely keep my distance, avoiding it… saying I need some time to myself… what kind of conversation would ensue when I got back?

Sounds very much like my first “Larry Paul”-inspired storyline… how torn up I was when he left where it took me a couple weeks to recover, went so far as to ban his name from my thoughts… then he comes back and what then?

I think with guys it might be a turn-off if they find their exes fell apart when they broke up… as if that’s supposed to make them feel guilty or something like that…
I’d like be sympathetic, but not to the point where people think I’m extremely needy

Oh god, no… I don’t want that misconception… even if it is extremely possible that that’s exactly it

I don’t quite remember when I decided this… I assume it’s before the truth came out last August… I think it was August…
maybe it was when I graduated… I decided I really didn’t need a boyfriend in my life to justify my happiness… yet when the guy I had my eye on came to mind or we were talking or whatever, my heart would flutter at the mere thought…
I still haven’t fully gotten over his rejection, I don’t think… even if it was just the long-distance thing… but I came on too strong when I was really trying not to… dammit… I hate when my dreams play with my mind like that

Coincidentally, the few times that Robert has appeard in my dreams… it’s been extremely interested, but I don’t think I’d ever been more critical of a celebrity appearing in my dreams…
with Prince, it was maybe 5 times… and maybe one or two of them had me thinking that wasn’t necessarily him in the dream, wasn’t close enough to the genuine article…

but with Robert… I’ve been insanely critical.
The first couple of times, I was saying “this is nothing like what he is in real life”… as if a few intereviews would tell me that…
like there was one dream he was my age and he was playing down Charlie Chaplin… or saying he wasn’t all that great or something… I don’t quite remember, but I was thinking “he respects him so much, he would never say those things”

phew… I hardly remember any details other than the couple of Sherlock inspired dreams… he was in the Victorian garb in the right kind of set pieces, with the flawless British accent…
one of those occurred when I was away at the shorehouse and devoid of all things Downey…

I know, pathetic isn’t it? but at the time, it was like the best pick-me-up in the world…

then after a while, it got ridiculous… my mind was harping on, in the dream, about asking him this one question about his time on “Ally McBeal”… it’s kinda demeaning to drudge up the past like that… but I just wanted to know “Why” and “How” he let everything blow up like that…
and regarding “Less than Zero,” I could easily ask the same thing… but I don’t want to insult him in choosing the wrong words like “any normal person after doing that movie would get the picture”…

not that he’s normal… nobody is… and as much as I put him on this pedestal, thinking he’s better than a lot of these actors who have gotten Oscars already… as if winning awards reflects your greatness… I didn’t care much that Prince didn’t win any awards, though I like to think he deserves more credit than he gets… always getting underestimated

I doubt I’d give Robert the same kind of treatment if I came into his career at any time before 2000… in and out of rehab, some jail time… I can be so judgemental of people sometimes, but I’ve benefited in coming into careers later on because I get to see the whole picture

it’s like going to a movie and already knowing that it’s going to be a happy ending… the mystery of whether this or that will come to pass is almost completely gone at this point… and considering his history, that would be a little too much for me to take… one heart attack too many wouldn’t do me any favors

What have I learned this year I spent in the [virtual] company of Robert Downey Jr.?

Being less judgemental first of all… giving people second chances…
It’s never too late to turn your life around

a lot of the philosophical stuff is pretty much covered in those sentences… I’d go further, but then I’d remember the fact that I have all of this advice, all this philosophy about the human condition, what it takes to turn yourself around… and in this year, I haven’t adhered a single bit of his advice to my life… I haven’t been able to change anything except that I’d become more deluded and isolated from reality…

huh… but I suppose… I mean, I’d kinda accepted the fact by now that just maybe Obama wasn’t that great a president, didn’t really do much for our country or take us out of this recession… everyone in my family was judging him before he ever took the oath, thinking he was going to drive America to the ground… not so much that, but he has had it secure in neutral for a while…

If I know Robert, he’d say that “you don’t have to ‘get’ stuff” … asking who is he to judge people, he doesn’t seem like that type of person, I mean when asked about Charlie Sheen, he kinda dismissed it, saying that he didn’t care either way… also kinda didn’t want to be the poster boy for addicts and narsicists in the movie industry…

he also said on the Jonathan Ross show that he doesn’t pass judgement on anyone who still does drugs “because it’s so great”… I know he meant it was a great high and all that… but I don’t know how much of what he said in that interview can be fully taken seriously… cuz he was extremely mellow, just given up smoking…

yeah…. I think since 2005, Robert has given up smoking 2-3 times… and I believe he’s still struggling with that a little bit… he doesn’t sound or look like your typical smoker either, his voice is so great

shoot, I learned so much about myself while listening to his interviews and now I really can’t say what I learned… I can’t remember all that well…
one thing I definitely did do, that he did with his album… it helps every once in a while to do something that challenges you, and takes you outside your comfort zone…

that’s kinda what I ended up doing with my writing… broaching the subject of sex, really discussing the fundamentals (not so much the mechanisms, wouldn’t know anything about that)… and putting it into my writing as a plot device… I guess it was kinda something I had to do because after taking care of all that, I felt a whole lot better…
although come to think of it, once I had that Owen Wilson/Rachel McAdams dream and wrote out what I dreamt about, I’d calmed down and it was more or less a phase I went through… and I’d been kinda unhappy since…

:falloff:
okay Robert, which option sounds more ridiculous to you?

being unhappy not having you in my life or
being unhappy because I broached a forbidden subject and now feel I’ve done all I can do in that area so there’s no need to continue?

Challenging myself was so much fun, I had no idea…
but it wasn’t like the two things were directly connected, that if I wasn’t visiting YouTube every night, I wouldn’t be putting sex into my writing…

far from it… I’ve actually tried to keep the two subjects separate… cuz it’d be like saying that he’d be the person I want to lose my virginity too… that’s overally fantatical and god, I’m so sorry Susan if I offended you with any of this…

at the end of the day, though, it just worked out that his characters that I was writing about led to having that incorporated in the storyline… it’s not like writing about the actual person in that fashion… same physical appearance, but different personality entirely

although I’d like to think that Larry Paul is the closest thing to getting all of Robert’s best qualities together into one character

in fact, I kinda wish sometimes that, even though he is making BIG money (oh shut up, you’re not “always broke”) doing his franchises, he’d do more movies where he’s playing everyday guys… like he did in “Due Date”… the only thing different from his actual personality is that Peter Highman has an angry management problem and is kind of a jerk sometimes…

to sum it up in 5 words or less,
Robert Downey Jr. is laid-back, dedicated, eccentric, eloquent and……………………. handsome

It’s hard to think of a couple of non-physical identifiers, but the first four was extremely easy…

I gotta face it:
the most things that Robert taught me over the years were things about movies…

he kinda nailed just what it is to be an actor… playing other people isn’t just a way to make money, he’s the kind of actor that does the roles that he thinks will enrich his soul and will teach him things that he can take with him to the next set piece or just into his everyday life…

He plays both sides of the coin extremely well where he thinks about movies in that way and he also approaches the production of the film like an audience member, trying to figure out what would work in a particular scene that will get the best reaction… he doesn’t want to short-change anyone into thinking the impossible is possible… everything happens for its reasons.
If anything, he likes to nail down the motivation of his characters so he can incorporate that into all the facets of the performance… knowing that this person has this personality type, how would they approach a crisis and find a way to resolve it?

I could be talking strictly about Sherlock Holmes on all this… but I swear I’d never thought of characterization the way he does…
of course he’d probably think I’m overcomplicating things

hey buddy, you wanna see overcomplicated, start reading this blog from starting back in April of 2007…

I do tend to overcomplicate things a little too much… with the story I’d been trying to rewrite for a while, I’m going too far out to explain myself… and some people might not care to know all this information… if anything, I take away from myself by leaving less to the interpretation

He’s taught me a thing or two about on-screen chemistry… strangely enough between men… he and his co-star bouncing ideas off one another, playing off each other…
Kiss Kiss Bang Bang was kinda about that…
Sherlock Holmes is completely wrapped up in that
Due Date was nothing more than those two characters playing off each other with Todd Phillips directing

I’ve taken so many good actors into my “confidences,” giving them a chance because they worked with Robert… okay, I lied… there was maybe 3-4 people… but if not for him, I don’t think I would have known who Kat Dennings, Terrence Howard or Anton Yelchin were…
I’d add Jay Baruchel to the mix cuz they were in Tropic Thunder together, but I think that would have happened regardless of anything Robert did he was the cute, young guy and this was his first big role (I’m talking about his character, Kevin Sandusky here)…

but I guess, if anything, his props have me wanting to give Ben Stiller and Mel Gibson second chances to impress me…
not that I ever went full negative and dismissed Mel Gibson like everyone else, I was just getting kinda sick of the negative press in general…
and I’d seen a couple of Ben Stiller films since then… “Along Came Polly” oddly was one of the better movies he was in… I mean the movie was crappy, but his character was somewhat more respectable that what he usually plays

I went into this a few entries ago, but I’ll repeat it again…

He kinda educated me on what it is to be a director… just by speaking the fondest words of the directors he’s worked with…
a director isn’t just someone who stands behind a camera and says “action”… he actually rehearses his cast, goes with them step by step (or giving them a scope of a scene and just saying to improv… depends on their style) and working on hashing things out until it comes out just right…

Guy Ritchie is most likely going to become my favorite director that Robert has worked with… the two of them has this amazing chemistry, well him and Jude… the three of them… they really want to give the audience the best possible film and it helps that they are all trained in some method of martial arts… makes a much better action/adventure flick that way

I kinda have a little more respect for indie films because Robert’s been in several… as well as indie directors and screenwriters…
he has a great relationship with these people, I mean they seem to know each other so well and work so well together…
sure, it might be because nobody else would hire him at the time, but he and James Toback have a good relationship.. they bring out the best in each other… like Toback will hash out these roles for Robert and Robert would do the best of his ability to bring that part of Toback to screen… cuz his movies are based on parts of him…

kinda the way he and Bradley Cooper embodied Todd Phillips in their respected films…

then there’s Shane Black who is insanely original and here’s hoping that Iron-Man 3 is such a success that he’ll continue to bring great original scripts from paper to screen for years to come… Lethal Weapon & Kiss Kiss Bang Bang blew me out of the water, so I have a lot of faith that Iron-Man 3 will be equally as successful… money is kinda guranateed cuz its a franchise, but the success is in how the movie works out as being an enjoyable film

and I guess kinda like my taste in music, which Prince greatly enriched over the years… he’s done the same thing for movies… and I have an even wider variety of films I like to watch…

I’m going to look into even more silent films because he made me a Charlie Chaplin fan, if only just giving me a taste of checking into silent films and curiosity goes a long way with me πŸ˜‰

I loved “Inglorious Basterds” but part of this new revelation might have got me thinking that I should check into “Pulp Fiction” too… though it wasn’t the only factor at stake…

I saw “Fight Club” cuz of the cultural references and to see what else David Fincher did as a director… with that in mind, I should see “Benjamin Button” again to compare… but I think I kinda learned after “Fight Club” and “Zodiac” that this is a director that doesn’t shy away from anything no matter how gory or how thrilling or suspenseful…
also that just maybe he might be done on the same list that Oliver Stone is on, in that I can’t really watch his movies cuz I come away from them not feeling much of anything, extremely numb because the subject matter was handled mercilessly…

and that’s okay… I’m not going to get into every film, but I will respect people who have carved a niche and style for themselves

Zack Snyder got me interested in seeing “300” after “Suckerpunch”… another distanct style… when I get a chance, I’ll see “Immortals” too but there are a couple reasons behind that, so not entirely because of him

Christopher Nolan on the other hand… I’m not nearly as willing to really give a chance… I didn’t like “The Prestige” at all or what he did the Batman brand…
but he did manage to make “Inception” into something that I definitely got into…

you get lucky every now and then, I guess

consequentally, I’d gotten a greater distaste for DC comic characters and the Dark Knight franchise since this all started…

and I guess overnight, I became a Marvel fan-girl… I heard about his next movie being The Avengers which would have all these Marvel superheroes… so I figured, what could it hurt to check into a couple of their movies, get to know them before the big movie premieres…

there is no telling how many threads I can draw just starting from that point… already, Chris Hemsworth is leading me towards “Snow White & the Huntsman” which is starring Kristen Stewart as an unorthodox Snow White
I’m not quite sure if I’m keener on seeing that movie because of him or her

interesting how we have Chris Hemsworth and Chris Evans in this movie… that’s a really popular name in show business I guess, but what are the chances that both would be in the same movie? I dunno, I’m sure it’s not the first time…

oh wait… there’s Samuel L. Jackson… if not for the fact he played Nick Fury, I don’t think I would have checked into all those movies….. oh wait… a lot of those were complete coincidences… Pulp Fiction is one thing… but Coach Carter I’d wanted to see for years, but he happened to be in that… then he had that cameo in Coming to America… coincidence…

but if anything, the combination of Nick Fury and Pulp Fiction has me thinking that this is one bad-ass MF that you don’t wanna mess with

I’m sure he’s certain to go down in history as being the next most bad-ass person on the planet after Chuck Norris… who is so bad-ass that there are actually books out there with lines and lines explaining why he’s bad-ass…

kinda like that Dos Equis guy “the most interesting man in the world”

I can say that Robert isn’t perfect… but he is probably the only actor I know that can wear anything from… Victorian era garb, a metal suit, jeans & a t-shirt… and wear his hair a million different ways (including facial hair… and the only requirement for the long hair to look good is a British accent and/or Victorian clothing)… and still look so good…
another example of how some people just look better with age

although this is partially concidence… cuz I got into him around this time, after all of the trouble has been behind, he has everything together… but I still believe he’d never looked better than he does now…

heck, he makes a little 5:30 shadow look good… just as long as he keeps to a few color schemes of clothing… i.e. anything except for purple, red, orange and yellow

..awww… my dad can be so sweet sometimes… he drudged up an old Giants cap for me… the only apparell I have, I guess, are just the team colors… blue & red…
at some point, I should get a T-shirt or something… but I’ll hold my tongue on that until the game’s over today…

amidst all this, it’s hard to remember what day today is… maybe I’m afraid to face that too cuz once this game is over, football season is over… and my god, it was such a great run for all the teams… probably the most exciting and nail-biting playoffs in years…

I’m just hoping… praying that I’ll be okay with whatever way it goes… I mean, I picked this match-up purposely for a good game and where I can kinda like both teams… but I want the winner to win justly rather than blowing away the competition… that’s not fun at all

and if the Patriots win, heck, they deserve it, I guess… they haven’t gotten to the SuperBowl since the Giants beat them at the end of their near-perfect year…

the whole business with Tom Brady’s wife…
he doesn’t really need prayers… Tom Brady is as good as they come and he will bring the best game he can… he is truely an elite athlete…

I’m hesitant to put Eli on the same pedestal… sure, a win today would help solidfy some sort of notoreity… but he’s a guy I don’t want to overestimate… keep my expectations too high and he’ll disappoint…

huh… I kinda treasure the fact that he’s not perfect all the time… because it makes his successes all the more impressive…

yep, Robert is another example of that…

but seriously how can I sum up this whole year I’d spend doing through all this stuff with him, learning about him and all that…

It was a difficult year in a number of ways… he made me more honest with myself and my situation… I’d kinda been downplaying things, but I’d been drudging up the fact that I’m not living the life I ought to be…
a lot of negativity does come with that, but it’s more about me dealing with my problems…

it’s very rare to come across someone as multi-talented as him that seems to be so good in everything he does… hard to believe this whole entry I never used my nickname for him once:

Mr. Multi-talented 😎 in every sense of the word…

but an actor I can respect for his movies and enjoy his movies just as much as I enjoy the behind-the-scenes… hearing his opinion on things, the very candid things… because he just has this way of explaining himself…
there’s that confidence, but heck, he’s not the only person whose confidence I’d want to steal for myself…
but if there was one attribute he had that I wish I had, being able to verbally explain myself as well as he can… I have that down in my writing, no matter how incohorent and outrageous this entry might have been… but to able to speak so well, really knowing what I want to say without having to really think too hard… it comes so naturally to him

I’ve had so many experiences this year with movies and everything in between that it’s crazy… and for the most part, they’ve done me a great service… making me happy… and I’m sure that bringing happiness to an audience is part of the actor’s job description

yeah… what more can I say except that Robert Downey Jr. has been a great mentor over the past year and I hope that some day down the road, knowing him in the way I have will benefit and enrich me in some way that will carry on into the rest of the my life

… now if only I had a good quote to end this whole thing with…

I guess not…

if anyone is dying for me just to say what my favorite film is that he did?

It’s hard to pick just one… I mean, I easily have my top 5…

Sherlock Holmes
Iron-Man
Kiss Kiss Bang Bang
Charlie Bartlett
Tropic Thunder
Due Date

heck, I think right now I like “Due Date” a little more than Tropic Thunder, which is kinda strange… as if the fact that I used to able to recall a quote to suit the situation at the drop of a hat… but I can’t

if anything, though, I’d totally recommend the two films in the middle so that maybe one day, they’ll get their own cult following and… whatever happens, happens, I guess

Just want to say once again… Mr. & Mrs. Downey, the best of luck, all the prayers in the world and here’s to your family’s happiness and good health

and I hope that I didn’t overstep my bounds too much in this entry.

and just… thank you to each of you, Robert for never giving up and Susan for being the best support system in the world. If any couple deserves a lifetime of happiness, its the two of you

 

postscript: watched a couple of “Due Date” interviews for kicks… and it was all well & good…
I think what I’m going to work on from now on… taking things a little at a time, sticking to the last decade of films… and just plain & simple, don’t overthink things… just let whatever happen, happen and just stop overanalyzing… I tried to do that in this entry and clearly it didn’t work in my favor.

but yeah, just doing whatever, not going too fast in whatever… and take the opportunities as they come, I guess

at the end of the day, I’m just an overally excited fan and he’s just an actor… if only the most multi-talented actor I know that’s always incredibly fun to watch when the subject matter is equally as fun and enjoyable. maybe I ought to stick to that too 😎

 

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